"I didn't even like her much, and yet all of a sudden I felt like i was in love with her and wanted to mairy her. I swear to God i'm crazy. I admit it."
For the last week or so my body has just been running on autopilot leaving my mind in a parallel dimension pondering the meaning of existence, myself, and a few other things to this effect. In the end my mind cracked under the pressure and now my mind has simply stopped, leaving my body on autopilot. The only thing I learned in exchange for my efforts to understand was the fact that I know nothing.
Holden’s random thought process in this book is very similar to how my mind was working during this period of time, except that he is pondering much less interesting things in my opinion. Holden clams he is insane, something I believe only sane people do, as far as I am concerned this proves his sanity. I mean think about it, no one who believes they are George Washington admits they are insane, that is what makes them insane.
I am starting to believe that Holden has made the same foolish mistake that I did and is trying to understand the world around him. After my painful atempts I now understand that understanding is not only impractical and unnecessary, but is a psychologically impossibility for anything of any real interest. I hope Holden realizes this, and just movies on with his life without looking too closely at the inconsistencies around him.
Don’t overanalyze life, just enjoy it. It’s all you have.
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One of my favorite characters in Discworld, is a person called Duckman. He hangs out with a group of crazies, one with seven personalities another with a stench so strong it has taken on sentience. When if you talk to Duckman, you will find has is an intelligent well educated person, who is quite some except with one notable exception.
ReplyDeleteHe has a duck on his head. One notable weird exception is all it takes for him to be labeled insane.
So....
ReplyDeleteat this moment, you are now a zombie of the life pondering variety? This is all in your definition of sane and insane. For me, HOlden has pretty much confirmed his insanity, by claiming his insanity (if that makes sense) he could have been perfectly sane before, until he started telling, and eventually convincing himself of his insanity...
i agree the problem is Holden is trying to think about it to much. when the obvious solution is not thinking at all.
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